CURRENTLY ADDING NOT ADDING

- 17yr old aussie girl. currently studying arts (major: sociology, minor: behavioral science) and social work
- fangirling currently: (tv) NCIS, BONES, GLEE, THE WEST WING (people) Allison Janney, Emily Deschanel, Cote De Pablo, Michael Weatherly (music) P!nk, The Cat Empire, Michael Jackson
- still fangirling: (tv) the x-files, law and order: svu, in plain sight, house (people) gillian anderson, lisa edelstine, mary mccormack, mariska hargitay (music) toto, meatloaf, foreigner
- loves: her friends, family, comments :D

*STOPS BREATHING*

There is a whole new set of spoiler photos out today from the Bones season finale, The End In The Beginning which airs on May 14th AND OH MY GOD. Seriously OH MY GOD.

This is my warning. BOTH PICTURES AND PICTURE DESCRIPTIONS CONTAIN SPOILERS and may cause heart attacks.



So give me your thoughts, squeals and predictions.

Each of us are unique and beautiful. We each have talents and qualities that make us special. Every person in our lives sees us in a different light. Our parents view us differently to our siblings, who see us differently again to our friends, who then see us differently from those we work with. The biggest difference though, is how we view ourselves. Each of us are different. We are dancers, feminists, democrats, republicans, students, career women. We are from all nationalities and religions. But we are women. We have curves and things we don't like about ourselves. We are sometimes moody, and other times we can't stop smiling for no reason. We have different quirks and habits, some of which we may share. We aren't all size 8, and many of us don't want to be. I was incredibly struck by a conversation that was had on an early episode of the West Wing, in which Bartlet, Leo and Josh talk about the women in their lives, and it truly has stuck with me, because it demonstrates that people really often do see the best in us, not the worst.

Bartlet: We were talking about these women
Josh: Yeah?
Leo: We can't get over these women
Bartlet: Look at C.J (CJ is laughing and talking to Sam and Donna while holding a Polaroid) She's like a fifties movie star, so capable, so loving and energetic
Leo: Look at Mandy over there (Mandy is on the other side of the room fighting with Toby about something) Going punch for punch with Toby in a world that tells women to sit down and shut up. Mandy's already won her battle with the President. The game's over, but she's not done. She wants Toby
Bartlet: Mrs. Landingham. Did you guys know she lost two sons in Vietnam? What would make her want to serve her country is beyond me, but in 14 years she's not missed a day's work. Not one. There's Cathy, Donna and Margaret.

We are strong, independent women, and no matter how anyone else see us, we should always keep in mind that there is someone out there than thinks we are. That thinks we are beautiful. That is proud of us. That loves us. And if being a part of the livejournal community has taught me anything in the 3 years that I've been here, it is that some of the most incredible people can be found here, and that the deepest of friendships can be formed.

So on this fine Saturday morning, I open up my trusty little web browser, check my emails, and proceed to my flist. I wasn't expecting the HUGE MASSIVE OH MY GOD SPOILERS from Bones.

There is a part of me that wishes that today was April 1st. Because this sounds like a really horrible April Fools joke. It also reminds me of a mid season 8 x-files episode.

You had better be sitting down when you read this news

(this comes directly from bones_spoilers  COMMENTS WILL CONTAIN DISCUSSION OF SPOILER BELOW. Skip the this cut if you just want the picspam of the gorgeousness that is Gillian, and leave your comment :D )

On to more important things. Today we're celebrating two birthday. so_vieh  is sharing her birthday with the beautiful Gillian Anderson. To celebrate Gillian's 40th birthday, I've dug up 40 of my favourite pictures.


Another thing to help celebrate G's birthday. Only comments that have icons with Gillian, Scully or Scully and Mulder will be allowed!

These are live (well, live as I get them) updates that are coming from both XFN and Haven on what's going on at the LA Film Festival that is featuring a NINETY MINUTE panel with Chris Carter, Frank Spotnitz and David Duchovny.






THESE ARE ALL SPOILERY! PLEASE SKIP OVER IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE SPOILED!













My thoughts are in italics.

- clips shown at the panel have apparently been tapped by the wonderful Kylie at Haven. (I will link to these clips when they pop up online)

- So apparently "shippers will be happy" says FS and DD, and who are we to argue with Frank and David?

- one clip has M&S arguing like we've never seen them argue before - very angsty.

- William is not a part of the plot, but is not forgotten...interesting

- apparently David (yes, Duchovny) will have a blog...wrap your head around that!

- there are 2 new clips where Mulder is trying to ignore scully Scully she's being a skeptic because she's protesting him taking the case. Sounds like the old Scully, and Mulder sounds like he's bringing the lolz

- apparently there is time at the panel for fan questions. i'm not even going to try and guess what people will come up with after what we saw at WonderCon...

- Scully tells Mulder that even after all these years, he's still looking for his sister. OH SCULLY DON'T DO THAT. (Samatha is apparently a metaphor for something?)

- Apparently this is part of the conversation that goes on, in shortened form

    she tells him that he needs to stop trying to save his sister
    he says that she's dead
    she says that hasn't stopped him
    she looks sad, almost sorrowful
    he says he needs the FBI team back out there
    he starts to walk
    she follows, asking what he's doing (scene that we saw being filmed ages ago possibly?)
    he quips that he's trying to ignore her (is that even possible?)

- Scully: This isn't my life anymore
  Mulder: [looks at her incredulously, tells FBI to keep searching]
okay, so she never went back to how things used to be (obviously) but does this mean she hasnt' been with Mulder all this time?

- DD was apparently saying something like "Mulder is at the end of the movie, more like the 1993!Mulder than ever" okay, so is mulder completely consumed by the search for lights in the sky? what about Scully?

- Panel is over quickest 90 minutes EVER

- DD brings the lolz: DD said "Xzibit pimped Chris' ride"

- Someone asked DD if he and GA ever had conflicting opinions on how the characters should be played, and DD said there are always conflicts, which makes it interesting, and that they do their own thing, and that they don't get in each others ways...interesting, at least they're not being angsty like Mulder and Scully

-  apparently the angsty clips show our favourite M&S chemistry working it's magic, with people in the audience saying that the scene had them tearing up and wanting to cry...

- theories are flying that the angsty scene between GA&DD is the one that GA had so much trouble with at the start of fliming...this is actually looking like a possibility, because lets face it, GA doesn't suck at anything. The scene described where Mulder walks away and Scully follows sounds a lot like the scene that was leaked early in the year, where both of them look angry and little tiny snippet of what we could hear sounded angry and testy.

- Pictures from the panel are starting to pop up. here and here

- Clips from the panel are starting to appear
     - David arriving
     - About getting back to M&S
     - What the movie is about. kind of

CLIP DESCRIPTION (thanks to Maru)

- Mulder and Scully are in the field and Mulder goes to keep looking and Scully asks him what he's doing. Mulder says searching and Scully starts to get a little peeved with him saying "It's my fault, i'm the one who brought you on this" (scully started this? that seems a little strange don't you guys think?) Mulder starts to walk away from Scully when she says this, and he says "i'm trying to ignore you" (snippy much mulder?)

- Mulder and Scully are kneeling down in the snow with Father Joe, Father Joe gets up and walks away and Mulder starts to go as well, Scully yells at him "stop! Stop, I don't want to do this anymore...it's not my job anymore" Mulder gets huffy and says "no, you're just my booking agent, right" jesus Mulder, you're supposed to be on her side She goes "no, I'm sorry I even got you into this" and they talk about how the "women issues he's having with finding these girls alive" he wants to find them Alive. i'm not really sure what to think about all of this so far. SO MUCH ANGST
They have a little convo about how he never finds the women in his life alive (meaning his sister and mother) and she goes onto to tell him Samantha is dead and he says something about that being why he wants to find these girls alive. Mulder walks off, Scully asks what he's doing and he says "i'm trying to ignore you"
okay, so just wtf is this movie about?

CLIP. OH MY GOD I AM DEAD.
transcribed from what I can hear (this is only the M&S bits)
starts off with Xhibt, M, S and Father Joe. There is the clip that is in the trailer with the whole "what do you see"
Mulder: Scully what does it mean 'through dirty glass'?
Scully: Mulder
Mulder: What?
Scully: STOP!
Mulder: (audience is laughing, and I can't make out what Mulder says)
Scully: This is not my job anymore Mulder
Mulder: No, that's right, that's right, you're just like, my, my booking agent now, right?
Scully: This is my fault
Mulder: What do you mean it's your fault?
Scully: For getting you involved in this
Mulder: No, No, it was the right thing to do Scully
Scully: This is not about finding an FBI agent, this is about you trying to save your sister
Mulder: what? my sister is dead (mulder sounds like he's about to cry!)
Scully: It hasnt' stopped you from looking for her
Scully: Mulder I have been through this too many years with you, believing you can save her, you cannot save her, not now, not ever
Mulder: (he turns away, like he's about to walk away) [shouting] we need those men back!
Scully: [in disbelief] what are you doing?
Mulder: Trying to ignore you (the snark on this statement is unbelievable!, and the whole audience is just like "OH SNAP")



updates as the come in from XFN and Haven

So I guess I wanted to extend on this post last night

Sometimes, I don't even know where I stand with myself. I mean, it's hard enough to try and figure out where I stand with everyone else in my life, friends and family.
I mean, I've always heard that growing up, finishing school is about finding yourself, and I guess in a way I've found myself over the past three years. The 20th of April marks a year. ONE YEAR since I first came out to my closest friends. I guess it's like those other big things in life, you always remember what you were doing, where you were, what day it was.

One year. A lot happens in a year, don't you think?

I did want to say more. I had a whole long speil lined up, I knew what I wanted to say, and the point that I wanted to make. I guess I wanted to say that while a lot happens in a year, I guess I'm not really happy with the place I'm in right now personally. There are some friendships that I miss, that are just beyond the point of fixing. I don't like that there are things in my life that only one other person knows, and I wish more people knew. Sometimes I think I wish that I was straight. I think that my life would be so much easier. That's not to say I WANT to be straight.
I know that people say that you're never given more than you can handle at one time, but sometimes I feel like i'm collapsing under the weight of everything. I knew before starting this school year that it would be the hardest year of my life. And it has been. It hasn't been the hardest year personally, but work load wise, I've worked harder than I ever have, and I'm surprised I haven't had a breakdown yet. I can feel one coming on though. I'm crumbling under everything. I guess that I expected to crumble at some point this year, but not so soon.

I'm wondering what happened to my old self. The happy-go-lucky girl that I used to know about two years ago. I'd really like her back. The girl who could laugh at herself. Who had solid friendships, without cracks and bullshit. The one who never cried because things were getting tough. The girl who enjoyed life. Wherever she's gone, I don't think she's coming back. Instead, I've got a girl who can sit at the computer at 8pm on a Tuesday night crying for no reason. Who can sit in her room alone and listen to her parents fighting and burst into tears. Who doesn't know a damn thing about what she's doing.

I guess I'm just waiting for someone to save me.

Title: Scully, Are You Okay?
Author: tendre_posion
Recipient: verygoodbread
Summary: Pregnant!Sentimental!Horny!Scully and Super!MindReader!AllKnowing!Mulder
Note: This is so bad I made myself cringe.

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SERIOUSLY SPAZZING OUT. FIRST OFFICIAL DAVID AND GILLIAN PICTURE FROM THE XF2 SET. SO DON'T CLICK THE CUT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE SPOILED

FANNNNMIIIIXXXXX TIME!

Title: This Is How It Goes  - Mulder and Scully; Explaining The Unexplainable
Author: tendre_posion 
Fandom: The X-Files
Pairing: Mulder/Scully
Summary: This is just a general "Mulder loves Scully, Scully loves Mulder" fanmix
Download: Individually under the cut
Art: Back under cut

  

Title: Conventional
Author: tendre_posion
Fandom: The X-Files
Pairing: Mulder/Scully
Rating: PG
Spoilers: None
Word Count: 200
Summary: He loves her and she loves him and it’s about the only conventional thing about them.
Authors Notes: I wanted to write something short and sweet. This is what I ended up with

I've actually never done a friends cut before, but my flist is overflowing.

I've cut you because

- You never update.
- You never comment
- When you do update, I skip over your entry
- We friended each other because of something fandom related, but it ended up going nowhere
- You friended me BUT DIDN'T COMMENT ON MY FRIENDS ONLY POST

IF WE'RE NOT MUTUAL FRIENDS ANYMORE. PLEASE TAKE ME OFF YOUR FRIENDS LIST.

If you want to be friended back (which in all honesty will probably not happen) COMMENT ON MY FRIENDS ONLY POST

before I do anything, I want to wish my luck and hope on those who are living in the fire zones in the US. I really, really hope that you're all okay, and that all of your families are okay.

Now, I promised before I went away that when I got back and everything started to settle down, that I would start doing weekly/bi-weekly fanfic/fandom recs, and this is me, delivering on my promise.

THE X-FILES
( smutty, msr, slash, lesbianism, babies, marriage, milagro )

Alright, that's all my recs for now. I'll keep building them up so that I have something to give you guys at least twice a month.


I wanted to get everyone's opinion on something. I'm not sure how many of you are into, or like poetry at all, but we have to study it this term in English, and I'm stuck in between two poems for my next assignment. They're Ozymandias , written by Percy Bysshe Shelley, and Porphyria's Lover , written by Robert Browning. The context of the assignment is that we have to write a speech on how the poem is relevant to the modern society, and while both poems are, I'm just not sure which would be the better to choose. HELP ME FLIST!

I'm going for my Learner's on Thursday afternoon. *bites nails* I hope I get it first time, but I'm not going to get my hopes up really high. I know what I'm doing, but there is always the off chance that I screw it up.

I also wanted to thank lissie_pissie  for getting me absolutely hooked on The Wallflowers after watching your House/Cuddy video yesterday (which by the way is absoultely amazing) you should all go and watch it here

In other rec-ing news, here are some videos I recommend you all go and watch
</lj>( australian music, news [kinda] and comedy )

HIHIHIHIHI BBS. I'M FINALLY HOME. and going on a little mini hiatus over the weekend. I'll probs update again tomorrow, MAYBE with some of the highlight photos from my trip. I'll give a short run down of my entire trip. which I hope shouldn't be very long


Now for the good news, I'll be away from tomorrow until Sunday afternoon at a Youth UN Conference at the Coast with Lily, Gemma and Andra, so I'll update about my weekend on Sunday night.

because I am tres bored wating for my flight at Siem Reap airport, i stole these from lacri_mosa

Meme:
01. What curse word do you use the most? all of them
02. Do you own an iPod? I do indeed
03. What person on your flist do you talk to the most? Krys lacri_mosa
04. What time is your alarm clock set to? one at 5:30am, another at 6:00am and the last one at 6:15am to make sure that I get up in time to get ready for school
05. Do you still remember the first person you kissed? it was a while ago, but i remember. 
06. Do you remember where you were on 11/9/01? Yes. Year 5 camp, wating for our canon instructor
07. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture? Take the picture.
08. What was the last movie you watched? The Lake House. It was on HBO before we left the hotel
09. Do any of your friends have children? I hope not.
10. Has anyone ever called you lazy? Yes. and various other terms that mean the same thing
11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep? No. I can sleep anywhere
12. What cd is currently in your cd player? Marilyn Manson
13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? Chocolate
14. Has anyone told you a secret this week? No.
15. When was the last time you had Starbucks? WAY too long ago
16. Can you whistle? Sorta.
17. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? The fact they're the opposite sex. 
18. What are you looking forward to? Going Home.
19. Did you watch cartoons as a child? Is this a stupid question? I watched a million cartoons
20. Do you own any band t-shirts? Unfortunatly, no
21. What will you be doing in one hour? Boarding my plane to Saigon.
22. Is anyone in love with you? No
23. What was the last song you heard? The Beautiful People by Marilyn Manson. (lolz, Krys that's really weird)
24. Last time you cried? Our third day in Hanoi. I felt really homesick
25. Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop? Desktop.
26. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? I want three tattoos. Ankle, Wrist and Shoulder
27. What’s the weather like? Cloud cover
28. Would you ever date a girl/guy covered in tattoos? Sure
29. What did you do before this? Went through the airport security things
30. When is the last time you slept on the floor? Not for ages
31. How many hours of sleep do you need to function? Two or Three
32. Do you eat breakfast daily? Yes
33. Are your days fast-paced? For the past two weeks they have been.
34. What did you do last night? Went to a really awesome resturant where you get to cook your own food over this really awesome bbq thing
35. Do you use sarcasm? Yes. My mum always gets up me for using it around her.
36. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 17
37. Are you picky about spelling and grammar? YESSSS
38. Have you ever been to six flags? um......no.
39. Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite sex? depends on the person
40. Do you like mustard? depends on what it's on/in
41. Do you sleep on your side? Most of the time
42. Do you watch the news? If I don't watch it, I'll always hear it on the radio
43. How did you get one of your scars? My sister bit me. Hard
44. Who was the last person to make you mad? I haven't been mad for ages, so I can't tell you.
45. Do you like anybody? I like lots of people. If you're asking me if I'm interested in someone, the answer is no. If your asking me if I crush really stupidly and obsessivly on celebs, then yes
46. What is the last thing you purchased? a (fake) gucci handbag
47. What side of the heart do you draw first? left
48. Can you dive without plugging your nose? who has to plug their nose when they dive? retard
49. What colour is your razor? *black
50. What is your blood-type? No fucking idea
51. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? GILLIAN ANDERSON. OR EMILY DESCHANEL OR LISA EDELSTIEN.
52. What is a rumour someone has spread about you? That i was a pregnant slut who'd slept with all of Terrace. I'd love to read the book of my life that those guys were reading from
53. How do you feel about carrots? They're orange and taste good
54. How many chairs at the dining room table? Six. but if you pull the table out you can have eight
55. Which is the best Spice Girl? Sporty.
56. Do you know what time it is? It's 5:16pm in Siem Reap, Cambodia and 8:16pm in Brisbane, Australia, and 9:16pm in Sydney, Australia. Beat that bitches
57. Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song? Of course i do.
58. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? Well, I'd probably jump around with my ipod blaring if i was by my self, or have hot lesbian elevator sex if i was with someone else who shall remain nameless.
59. What’s your favourite kind of gum? Mint.
60. T or F: All’s fair in love and war? considering love and war are very opposite, THAT STATEMENT DOES NOT EVEN
61. Do you have a crush on anyone? In RL, I did, and I crush on so many celebs that it's actually not healthy
62. Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning? Yes
63. Do you like to sleep? Most of the time
64. Do you know which US states don’t use Daylight Savings Time? No, but I can tell you what state is the only one in australia not to have it. QUEENSLAND. THAT'S RIGHT, MY STATE, THE "SMART STATE" STILL THINKS THAT DAYLIGHT SAVING CHANGES THE TIME THE COWS GIVE MILK, THAT IT CAUSES SKIN CANCER (NICE ONE MR BEATTIE) AND THAT IT FADES THE CURTAINS. FUCKERS
65. Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart? No.
66. Do you want a bright yellow ‘06 mustang? No. Because i don't want to look like a retard
67. What’s something you’ve always wanted? A car would be nice. even nicer if it came with the perfect girlfriend
68. Do you have hairy LEGS? NO. I shaved yesterday
69. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake? LAKE. I hate the ocean
70. Do you wear a lot of black? YES
71. Describe your hair: Gross from travelling
72. Do you have Entomophobia? YES. No, I have no idea what that means
73. Are you an adult? No
74. Where is/are your best friend(s)? Australia
75. Do you have a tan? YES and it's real.
76. Are you a television addict? I download tv shows, does that count?
77. Do you enjoy spending time with your mother? 80% of the time
78. Are you a sugar freak? No
79. Do you like orange juice? No
80. What sign are you? LEO. RAWWW

HIHIHI BBFACES
I'm in Siam Reap right now, which as you may have guessed is in Cambodia (yes lily, i'll take a gazillionty pictures for you) We're heading off to Angkor Wat in about an hour to have a little tour and watch the sun set over it in a tethered balloon which rises 250m off the ground. Tomorrow we have a pre-dawn start and we're back at Angkor Wat for a full day tour. THEN on Tuesday we have a free day until about 4pm when we get picked up to go back to the airport

HIHIHI BB'S
Saigon is the most awesomesauce place I've been to on my trip so far, it's like the Brisbane, Sydney and Melbourne CBD's all in one. It's busy, loud and never seems to stop. And I've done HEAPS more shopping here. I've bought myself another wallet, this time D&G, a Gucci handbag, Omega watch (which is sooooo awesome IL it so much) AND OMFG. I GOT ALL NINE SEASONS OF THE X-FILES. FOR $AU20. BUT. Apparently (much to my dismay) Hairspray is too new of a movie to buy yet D=
I'm off to Cambodia REALLY early tomorrow morning, and then I'll be back home. To Lily, I will be at school on Friday as well as Thursday arvo. It's sooooooooo hot here, which I have been hearing is not that different from back home.

HIHIHI BB'S! It's still raining like nothing else here, and we're apparently looking forward to getting the really heavy rain of the outskirts of a typhoon later on tonight. 
In other exciting news, I got measured and fitted for my formal dress today, which is going to be a deep red. It's a complicated dress to try and explain, so when it's all done, I'll take photos and you can see what it's like. I also went back and had a second fitting for my other summer dresses and they were both perfect, so I now have those, and we're going back into town later to have another fitting for shoes, and a floaty singlet type top that I'm also having made. I saw some pretty odd stuff at the markets this morning. You can actually buy dead king cobras that have been stuffed into bottles. They look really creapy. And you can also buy dried seahorse and dried snake. We didn't have the camera today because it was WAY too wet, so I couldn't get photos *cries*
I still miss home, and I am reading all of your LJ's and I often see things and think "that reminds me of ....." especially when looking through DVD shops.
I think I should start counting down the days until I come home. As of today, it's 9

I KNOW THAT I SUCK AT UPDATING ABOUT MY TRIP AND IT MAKES ME SO SAD. I JUST DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SIT DOWN AND WRITE ALL THAT I WANT TO WRITE. *CRIES*
WE MOVED FROM HUE TO HOI AN TODAY, AND AS SOON AS WE GOT HERE, IT STARTED TO POOR WITH RAIN. I'M TALKING ENOUGH RAIN TO FILL ALL THE DAMS IN AUSTRALIA. SRSLY. AND WE WERE WALKING THROUGH IT. WEARING PONCHOS.
AND AND AND. THIS IS SO AWESOME. THE CAN TAILOR MAKE YOU ANYTHING YOU FREAKING WANT. I GOT FITTED FOR TWO REALLY CUTE SUMMER DRESSES THIS AFTERNOON, AND THE SHOP NEXT DOOR MAKES SHOES TO FIT. AND I'M GETTING THE CUTEST PAIR OF BLACK ROUND TOE HEELS MADE. ♥♥♥ 


I promise that I'll try and be around a little more, I have two full days here in Hoi An, and then we're off to Saigon, and then from Saigon, we're going to Angor Wat in Cambodia which is the LAST LEG of our trip, and then we fly from Angor Wat to Saigon and then from Saigon back to Sydney and Sydney back to Brisbane. (FYI RL FRIENDS, I get to the airport at 12:35pm on Wednesday October 10, and I'll probs come to school the next day at about lunch time maybe with all of your presents if I like you that much then)