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I somehow stumbled today from reading Autostraddle's NSFW Sunday to reading an advice article for mums who are trying to have "the talk" with their daughters. 

And it made me think about my own experience with the talk - mostly the fact that I never got the talk. Not really. When I was in Grades 6 and 7, we had Family Planning QLD come out to the school and give three hour long talks on how babies are made and what hormones do and why I bleed like a stuck pig out of my vagina for 5 days every month and what a condom is. Basically, we were told about the basic mechanics of sex, and at the end, we got to watch a woman have a baby, which let me tell you, has pretty much put me off pushing a 6lb human out of vagina EVER. And this seemed to be enough for my mum. I was in Grade 7 the first time I got my period and informed my mum and that was the end of it. 

But never, in any of those talks was there a mention of sex for pleasure, or what an orgasm was or what the hell my clitoris even was, so you can be sure there wasn't any mention of the word masturbation. There sure as hell wasn't any mention of LGBT relationships (this is now almost 10 years ago!). As an 11 and 12 year old, this satisfied most of my curiosity, because exposure to the internet wasn't nearly what it is now, and it wasn't until I got to high school that I became curious about the other parts of my sexuality. I spent 5 years at an all girls school, and pretty much from my first day there, the word lesbian was thrown around everywhere. At this stage of my little gay life, I had no idea I was gay, even though I knew what a lesbian was. It actually wasn't until half way through Grade 8, when I really started to read ALL the fanfic that I learnt about sex and masturbation and what a vibrator was and the stuff they won't teach you in sex ed. It was also at this point that I had my first kiss, ripe old age of 13. At 15 I'd mostly figured out I was queer and told my friends with mixed reactions, including "how can you know if you've never had sex?". Well, at 20, I'm still a virgin, and yep. Still queer. 

My own experience with sex education is probably why I have no shame in talking about any facet of sex, or concealing the fact that I have a healthy sex drive. 

It also made me think

What was your experience with sex education like? Did your parents ever give you the talk and looking back now, did you learn anything from it? If you ever have children, what would you like to talk to them about that you feel like you missed out on?

 So one day I had a crazy idea. To picspam every outfit Magnus ever wore. The following picspam is a result of the insanity.

It is SUPER IMAGE HEAVY, so beware if you're on dial-up.

( SEASON ONE )( SEASON TWO )

*STOPS BREATHING*

There is a whole new set of spoiler photos out today from the Bones season finale, The End In The Beginning which airs on May 14th AND OH MY GOD. Seriously OH MY GOD.

This is my warning. BOTH PICTURES AND PICTURE DESCRIPTIONS CONTAIN SPOILERS and may cause heart attacks.



So give me your thoughts, squeals and predictions.

Each of us are unique and beautiful. We each have talents and qualities that make us special. Every person in our lives sees us in a different light. Our parents view us differently to our siblings, who see us differently again to our friends, who then see us differently from those we work with. The biggest difference though, is how we view ourselves. Each of us are different. We are dancers, feminists, democrats, republicans, students, career women. We are from all nationalities and religions. But we are women. We have curves and things we don't like about ourselves. We are sometimes moody, and other times we can't stop smiling for no reason. We have different quirks and habits, some of which we may share. We aren't all size 8, and many of us don't want to be. I was incredibly struck by a conversation that was had on an early episode of the West Wing, in which Bartlet, Leo and Josh talk about the women in their lives, and it truly has stuck with me, because it demonstrates that people really often do see the best in us, not the worst.

Bartlet: We were talking about these women
Josh: Yeah?
Leo: We can't get over these women
Bartlet: Look at C.J (CJ is laughing and talking to Sam and Donna while holding a Polaroid) She's like a fifties movie star, so capable, so loving and energetic
Leo: Look at Mandy over there (Mandy is on the other side of the room fighting with Toby about something) Going punch for punch with Toby in a world that tells women to sit down and shut up. Mandy's already won her battle with the President. The game's over, but she's not done. She wants Toby
Bartlet: Mrs. Landingham. Did you guys know she lost two sons in Vietnam? What would make her want to serve her country is beyond me, but in 14 years she's not missed a day's work. Not one. There's Cathy, Donna and Margaret.

We are strong, independent women, and no matter how anyone else see us, we should always keep in mind that there is someone out there than thinks we are. That thinks we are beautiful. That is proud of us. That loves us. And if being a part of the livejournal community has taught me anything in the 3 years that I've been here, it is that some of the most incredible people can be found here, and that the deepest of friendships can be formed.

So on this fine Saturday morning, I open up my trusty little web browser, check my emails, and proceed to my flist. I wasn't expecting the HUGE MASSIVE OH MY GOD SPOILERS from Bones.

There is a part of me that wishes that today was April 1st. Because this sounds like a really horrible April Fools joke. It also reminds me of a mid season 8 x-files episode.

You had better be sitting down when you read this news

(this comes directly from bones_spoilers  COMMENTS WILL CONTAIN DISCUSSION OF SPOILER BELOW. Skip the this cut if you just want the picspam of the gorgeousness that is Gillian, and leave your comment :D )

On to more important things. Today we're celebrating two birthday. so_vieh  is sharing her birthday with the beautiful Gillian Anderson. To celebrate Gillian's 40th birthday, I've dug up 40 of my favourite pictures.


Another thing to help celebrate G's birthday. Only comments that have icons with Gillian, Scully or Scully and Mulder will be allowed!

These are live (well, live as I get them) updates that are coming from both XFN and Haven on what's going on at the LA Film Festival that is featuring a NINETY MINUTE panel with Chris Carter, Frank Spotnitz and David Duchovny.






THESE ARE ALL SPOILERY! PLEASE SKIP OVER IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE SPOILED!













My thoughts are in italics.

- clips shown at the panel have apparently been tapped by the wonderful Kylie at Haven. (I will link to these clips when they pop up online)

- So apparently "shippers will be happy" says FS and DD, and who are we to argue with Frank and David?

- one clip has M&S arguing like we've never seen them argue before - very angsty.

- William is not a part of the plot, but is not forgotten...interesting

- apparently David (yes, Duchovny) will have a blog...wrap your head around that!

- there are 2 new clips where Mulder is trying to ignore scully Scully she's being a skeptic because she's protesting him taking the case. Sounds like the old Scully, and Mulder sounds like he's bringing the lolz

- apparently there is time at the panel for fan questions. i'm not even going to try and guess what people will come up with after what we saw at WonderCon...

- Scully tells Mulder that even after all these years, he's still looking for his sister. OH SCULLY DON'T DO THAT. (Samatha is apparently a metaphor for something?)

- Apparently this is part of the conversation that goes on, in shortened form

    she tells him that he needs to stop trying to save his sister
    he says that she's dead
    she says that hasn't stopped him
    she looks sad, almost sorrowful
    he says he needs the FBI team back out there
    he starts to walk
    she follows, asking what he's doing (scene that we saw being filmed ages ago possibly?)
    he quips that he's trying to ignore her (is that even possible?)

- Scully: This isn't my life anymore
  Mulder: [looks at her incredulously, tells FBI to keep searching]
okay, so she never went back to how things used to be (obviously) but does this mean she hasnt' been with Mulder all this time?

- DD was apparently saying something like "Mulder is at the end of the movie, more like the 1993!Mulder than ever" okay, so is mulder completely consumed by the search for lights in the sky? what about Scully?

- Panel is over quickest 90 minutes EVER

- DD brings the lolz: DD said "Xzibit pimped Chris' ride"

- Someone asked DD if he and GA ever had conflicting opinions on how the characters should be played, and DD said there are always conflicts, which makes it interesting, and that they do their own thing, and that they don't get in each others ways...interesting, at least they're not being angsty like Mulder and Scully

-  apparently the angsty clips show our favourite M&S chemistry working it's magic, with people in the audience saying that the scene had them tearing up and wanting to cry...

- theories are flying that the angsty scene between GA&DD is the one that GA had so much trouble with at the start of fliming...this is actually looking like a possibility, because lets face it, GA doesn't suck at anything. The scene described where Mulder walks away and Scully follows sounds a lot like the scene that was leaked early in the year, where both of them look angry and little tiny snippet of what we could hear sounded angry and testy.

- Pictures from the panel are starting to pop up. here and here

- Clips from the panel are starting to appear
     - David arriving
     - About getting back to M&S
     - What the movie is about. kind of

CLIP DESCRIPTION (thanks to Maru)

- Mulder and Scully are in the field and Mulder goes to keep looking and Scully asks him what he's doing. Mulder says searching and Scully starts to get a little peeved with him saying "It's my fault, i'm the one who brought you on this" (scully started this? that seems a little strange don't you guys think?) Mulder starts to walk away from Scully when she says this, and he says "i'm trying to ignore you" (snippy much mulder?)

- Mulder and Scully are kneeling down in the snow with Father Joe, Father Joe gets up and walks away and Mulder starts to go as well, Scully yells at him "stop! Stop, I don't want to do this anymore...it's not my job anymore" Mulder gets huffy and says "no, you're just my booking agent, right" jesus Mulder, you're supposed to be on her side She goes "no, I'm sorry I even got you into this" and they talk about how the "women issues he's having with finding these girls alive" he wants to find them Alive. i'm not really sure what to think about all of this so far. SO MUCH ANGST
They have a little convo about how he never finds the women in his life alive (meaning his sister and mother) and she goes onto to tell him Samantha is dead and he says something about that being why he wants to find these girls alive. Mulder walks off, Scully asks what he's doing and he says "i'm trying to ignore you"
okay, so just wtf is this movie about?

CLIP. OH MY GOD I AM DEAD.
transcribed from what I can hear (this is only the M&S bits)
starts off with Xhibt, M, S and Father Joe. There is the clip that is in the trailer with the whole "what do you see"
Mulder: Scully what does it mean 'through dirty glass'?
Scully: Mulder
Mulder: What?
Scully: STOP!
Mulder: (audience is laughing, and I can't make out what Mulder says)
Scully: This is not my job anymore Mulder
Mulder: No, that's right, that's right, you're just like, my, my booking agent now, right?
Scully: This is my fault
Mulder: What do you mean it's your fault?
Scully: For getting you involved in this
Mulder: No, No, it was the right thing to do Scully
Scully: This is not about finding an FBI agent, this is about you trying to save your sister
Mulder: what? my sister is dead (mulder sounds like he's about to cry!)
Scully: It hasnt' stopped you from looking for her
Scully: Mulder I have been through this too many years with you, believing you can save her, you cannot save her, not now, not ever
Mulder: (he turns away, like he's about to walk away) [shouting] we need those men back!
Scully: [in disbelief] what are you doing?
Mulder: Trying to ignore you (the snark on this statement is unbelievable!, and the whole audience is just like "OH SNAP")



updates as the come in from XFN and Haven

So I guess I wanted to extend on this post last night

Sometimes, I don't even know where I stand with myself. I mean, it's hard enough to try and figure out where I stand with everyone else in my life, friends and family.
I mean, I've always heard that growing up, finishing school is about finding yourself, and I guess in a way I've found myself over the past three years. The 20th of April marks a year. ONE YEAR since I first came out to my closest friends. I guess it's like those other big things in life, you always remember what you were doing, where you were, what day it was.

One year. A lot happens in a year, don't you think?

I did want to say more. I had a whole long speil lined up, I knew what I wanted to say, and the point that I wanted to make. I guess I wanted to say that while a lot happens in a year, I guess I'm not really happy with the place I'm in right now personally. There are some friendships that I miss, that are just beyond the point of fixing. I don't like that there are things in my life that only one other person knows, and I wish more people knew. Sometimes I think I wish that I was straight. I think that my life would be so much easier. That's not to say I WANT to be straight.
I know that people say that you're never given more than you can handle at one time, but sometimes I feel like i'm collapsing under the weight of everything. I knew before starting this school year that it would be the hardest year of my life. And it has been. It hasn't been the hardest year personally, but work load wise, I've worked harder than I ever have, and I'm surprised I haven't had a breakdown yet. I can feel one coming on though. I'm crumbling under everything. I guess that I expected to crumble at some point this year, but not so soon.

I'm wondering what happened to my old self. The happy-go-lucky girl that I used to know about two years ago. I'd really like her back. The girl who could laugh at herself. Who had solid friendships, without cracks and bullshit. The one who never cried because things were getting tough. The girl who enjoyed life. Wherever she's gone, I don't think she's coming back. Instead, I've got a girl who can sit at the computer at 8pm on a Tuesday night crying for no reason. Who can sit in her room alone and listen to her parents fighting and burst into tears. Who doesn't know a damn thing about what she's doing.

I guess I'm just waiting for someone to save me.